I've had 180cals today so far. I plan on going for an hour long walk tonight so that'll be my exercise along with a bit of ab work on my bedroom floor. I feel awful though. Just really depressed, sad, confused and really really anxious. I almost had to pull my car over today coz I started freaking out and shaking and breathing really fast. Erg. I don't even know what to post about. I have really absolutely nothing to say. I'm nothing. Too bad I don't weight next to nothing.

I just want it all gone. It's all I really have left. Everything went away. Everyone moved on and moved forward....I'm still sitting here...alone....sad and alone. Never anyone's first choice....never the one to be excited about....never the one you REALLY want but the one you'll settle for for a short while....until you realize you can get out and do so much better.

Something to add to my food list is grapes and coffee as a great snack....or strawberries and coffee as a snack....mind you I eat snacks for meals.

Another thing is 1 cup of diced tomatoes with a slice of 60cal low fat cheese. Would total around 110 cals for a meal. Microwave it all and add pepper and salt.......garlic if wanted.

That's what I was going to have for dinner. But alas...I have to comply to my mother's wishes.

Erg.